Mother, oh may I

I realized the reason I miss you so much. In a way people tend to get squared into one version of themselves, boxed into one picture of themselves which limits their perspective and the way they live so much. I feel you dont. You have many sides. I seem to see the child inside you when you smile or laugh. Thts why I love making you smile so much. You seem amazed with wonder for everything around you and the details in the world. It fills you with so many feelings of happiness and even sadness. But sometimes when it's overwhelming you you are able to rationalize your feelings and understand the way things are and manage your emotions with maturity and wisdom. As if you were an old soul of an other lifetime. 

I realized i miss you so much because in your inner childish innocence I see the daughter I would love to have. And when you re managing your feelings and showing your strength as a woman I see the amazing mother you will be one day.